Rough Draft for a Rough Season

As Rosh Chodesh Elul approaches, rough draft of an al chet [litany of missing the mark] in hopes of awakening us to some areas of error we might try to fix as the Days of Awe draw near. Part of series: Calendar Notes for a Summer of Collapse

Selichot for Institutions, Elul 5785

New text for Elul 5785 (by V. Spatz, CC BY-SA-NC) with **quotations from Machzor Lev Shalem (Rabbinical Assembly, 2010)**

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Selichot (Forgiveness) Prayers for Institutions

The soul is Yours, the body is Your creation Have compassion on Your handiwork ** (p.225)

In function and in failure, our institutions are Yours as well
Re-orient us to divine sparks and powers within
Save us from ourselves with ourselves under Your guidance


Grant relief to this driven leaf (Lev 26:36)
Have compassion on that which is but dust and ashes

Cast away our sins, be kind to Your creations.

God saw it and appraised it, examined it and plumbed it,
and then God said to human beings:

“The fear of HASHEM — that is wisdom;
departing from sin — that is true knowledge”
(Job 28:28) ** (p.224)

Our institutions are at once fragile and ponderous,
fleeting and stagnant, intractable and so easily toppled
conflict and confusion foster many modes of collapse

Keep us from contributing our own brittleness and turmoil
Remind us of connection’s strength and possibility
Help us pursue repair when all seems lost


If you see within me cause for sadness, guide me toward eternal truths

Hear my prayer, God, give ear to my cry; do not disregard my tears;
like all my forebears I am a wanderer, a guest in Your house

Make me an instrument of Your salvation ** (p.228)

My soul yearns for You, though I am afraid of Your judgment

My heart is caught in the web it has spun.
Form me anew, granting me a heart freshly born ** (p.230)


Our understanding is limited, obstacles abound
Our errors serve as brambles, adding pain along the way
We’ve lost ourselves and misled others

Clarify our missteps so we know when we must turn
Teach us to notice stumbling-blocks and dangers in the road
When despair threatens, nudge us back toward hope


We call out in words You taught Moses to use in times of trouble: “HaShem, HaShem, God compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, full of kindness and trust, extending kindness to the thousandth generation, forgiving iniquity, transgression and sin –” (Ex 34:6-7)

For the sin we have committed before You in destroying without thought to the future
For the sin we have committed before You by bowing down to the past

For the sin we have committed before You by focusing on policy in a world on fire
For the sin we have committed before You by thinking crisis overrides all planning and care

For the sin we have committed before You by thoughtlessly allowing ourselves to be led
For the sin we have committed before You by refusing to honor leadership

For the sin we have committed before You by failing to ask how we can help
For the sin we have committed before You by assuming it’s easier to do it all ourselves

For the sin we have committed before You by approving decisions that worry us
For the sin we have committed before You by second-guessing every step

For the sin we have committed before You by treating critique as attack
For the sin we have committed before You by attacking under the guise of help

For the sin we have committed before You by treating lock-step as unity
For the sin we have committed before You by mistaking variety of opinion for inclusion

For the sin we have committed before You by assuming we know too little to offer opinion
For the sin we have committed before You by thinking we know it all

For the sin we have committed before You by assuming our perspectives somehow universal
For the sin we have committed before You by assuming our own experiences unique

For the sin we have committed before You by mistaking outrage for justice
For the sin we have committed before You by succumbing to complacency

For the sin we have committed before You by fearing uncertainty and pause
For the sin we have committed before You by letting uncertainty paralyze us

For the sin we have committed before You by bringing punitive efforts into abolition work
For the sin we have committed before You by using abolition language to absolve real error

For the sin we have committed before You by putting Movement above people
For the sin we have committed before You by failing to keep our eyes on the prize

To all these sins, awaken us, help us recognize harm, and grant us ability to change
Bring us to the day when we can ask that you forgive us, pardon us, and grant us atonement.


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Toward Anti-Racism — Selichot Sources

Back in summer of 2020, I was privileged to help Hill Havurah create some readings and prayers to help guide us through reflection around racial justice and teshuvah [repentance/return]: what more can we help transform through identifying, and seeking to make amends, alone and together, for, previously unrecognized errors of thought, word, and deed?

[UPDATED 2022] For 5782-83, a new video, enhanced by images licensed to Hill Havurah by DC-based photographer Joseph Young, was prepared to accompany this al chet/Confessional.

The selichot booklet was also slightly updated. It is available here, free of charge, to download. But please consider donating to Hill Havurah, which supported the video and booklet production, and/or to the racial justice organization of your choice.

Consider Harriet’s Wildest Dreams or DC Black Lives Matter.

Selichot Sources: Toward Anti-Racism prepared by Rachel Conway and Virginia Spatz, for Hill Havurah, with advising from Rachel Faulkner (update 2023: now with National Council of Jewish Women, just for identification purposes).

Download PDF: HH Selichot 5783

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